Trying to Re-Member

There’s a group I attend from time to time here in my town.  Each week they provide cups of every kind of herbal tea you can imagine, biscuits or cake, and a speaker.  The talks range over many areas and subjects, but they must always be positive.  That seems to be the only rule.

Abstract, Background, Pattern, ArtisticI’d never heard of that night’s speaker, but his subject was ‘The Eight Elements’ and partly because I’d been pondering on elements for quite a while and partly because he was speaking as a follower of Krishna – a Truth quite new to me – I decided to go along.

The gentleman stood calmly before us, looked around the room at the sea of faces and announced, with total certainty, “I’m not the only person in this room who has been to the breaking point.  I’m not alone in having reached a point in my life where everything I lived for, everything I believed, everything I cared about was swept away, leaving me lost, broken and utterly alone.”

All around the room, heads nodded slowly, solemnly, mine included.

The talk was excellent.  Krishna’s take on the elements was oddly familiar and linked in well with the Egyptian, Greek, Shamanic, Medieval and alchemical ideas I’d been reading and thinking about.  What I was left with above all, though, was that idea of the breaking point – the need to go through what feels at the time to be a crisis, a disaster, a destruction of all you’ve held dear.  It is the tower card in the tarot – the card I used to fear above all others, back in the days when my life was settled and sorted (although very far from perfect).

I thought of the many friends and family members I’ve seen hit that point, whether through a sudden incapacitating illness, a financial meltdown, a job loss, a relationship breakup or what’s commonly called a nervous breakdown.  Often – as in my own case – it’s a mixture of several of these.  Like the body of Osiris, we are broken up, hacked into pieces and scattered in the waters of Life.

Shell, Broken, Empty, Close, LeaveThere follows a time of the most awe-ful emptiness.  We shut down.  We exist from moment to moment, day to day, with no clear idea of how or why we are still functioning.  This is the time we need to hide away, to withdraw from everyone and everything, knowing at some instinctive level that we require peace, and that healing will eventually flow from this.

Despite the kindness and ministrations of others, there’s ultimately only one place that healing can come from.  It comes from within.  It comes from our soul-selves – the part of us that is, and has always been, whole and complete.  Slowly and painfully, we begin to re-member ourselves – to put ourselves back together.  This time, though, we will be different.  We will have shed the limiting beliefs that we are not complete without money/ health/ family/ possessions/ career/ home/ friends or whatever we relied upon for stability and identity in the past.  That’s not to say we won’t regain or rediscover some of these, but they will no longer take centre stage.

Now we will have re-membered who we truly are.  We will recognise that we are whole and complete in ourselves.  We are not – primarily – parent or employee, partner or owner.  We are infinite aspects of the great I AM and as such, we have no limits.

“Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding. It is the bitter potion by which the physician within you heals your sick self. Therefore, trust the physician and drink his remedy in silence and tranquility.”

Kahlil Gibran: The Prophet


14 comments on “Trying to Re-Member

  1. Great Post Jan. I agree “Nothing just happens everything happens just” When we can accept what is happening and even try to embrace it, knowing that it has happened to show us something, this is when we can get the lesson that comes with the challenge.And suddenly once again life becomes quite magical. In the process of this understanding the lesson at hand, we remember on some level that we are one with the incredible universe. and the great dreamer.

  2. Once again, I feel like you are speaking directly to me. And yet, I realize the universality of experiencing hitting the breaking point. Thank you for doing such a brilliant job of describing it all; and for getting to the marrow – remembering who we are. As much as my world shifted in huge ways almost two months ago now because I created massive healing intentionally, it’s been much the process you describe of existing moment to moment, and day to day, as what is no longer needed or wanted falls away, and coming to terms with who I am now.

    • Yes, it is a difficult process, but it becomes so much easier when we have the faith and understanding to know that the resources are there within us to heal and grow further into our truth.
      Wishing you well, dear Sue x

    • Well in that case, i’m glad you found your way here 🙂
      I have something of a split personality – and a selection of blogs to prove it. This is my ‘metafizzy’ blog, where I ramble on about life, the universe and everything. I was drawn to your blog by one of my other great passions – making miniatures. For reason’s I haven’t been able to fathom, WordPress only allow me to ‘like’ other posts from this one, Perhaps you’ll find more in common with my blog at … but then maybe not! I find your blog very inspiring, anyhow.
      Jan x

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